Monday, July 19, 2010

Not the news we were hoping for.....

Due to the content in part of this post, I have decided to finish the post with Top 2 Tuesday, rather than start with it- I figured it would be better to end on a fun note! If for some random reason you are only wanting to read this post for Top 2 Tuesday, feel free to scroll down a bit.......

As I mentioned before, today was the day of our ultrasound to see if all those injections I did last week paid off. Husband picked me up from work this morning so that we could rush over to our appointment- only to find out they were running very behind at my fertility office. Here is the before picture (while we were waiting for the assistant to come in 40 minutes past our appointment time!)This is my nervous look......

Now for the news: we did not have any change with the Clomid and Injections :( My follicles (on my ovaries) were not measuring anywhere near large enough to indicate that any eggs were ready. Which means this month was a big, fat bust! So what happens next? We move forward with DAILY injectionables now- not something I am looking forward to! Husband and I are going in for a consultation once again on Friday to get a new game plan together to increase my dosage and start "dailies"- and this time we are going to completely rule out Clomid- since apparently Clomid is like candy to me and does absolutely nothing!

This news was hard for me- I mean really hard. With each month that passes and we receive the bad news, I worry more and more that maybe this will not happen for us. Luckily, I work with the most amazing people ever! I had to return to work after the appointment- which turned out to actually be a good thing because it distracted me- and I was given nothing but unconditional support from all of my co workers. I also know that I have the most wonderful family and friends (blogger friends, too!) and cannot express to everyone how much your support really does help! Of course, I will continue to update you all as I learn more about what our next step will be- but in the meantime I will be starting a birth control pack (weird, I know) to try to "restart" my hormones.

**Brutally Honest Moment Here- The song "Fix You" by Coldplay has been my go-to song today and it definitely helped to come home, turn it up and cry a little by myself before Husband came home. It was so nice to get some of the emotions out that had been bottled up inside all day.



Ok, enough sad stuff.........on to the fun part of my post- TOP 2 TUESDAY!
Todays topic over at The Undomestic Momma is Top 2 things you would like to purchase- what the perfect topic to put me in a better mood!

1) This purse by my new love- Henri Bendel

I am actually very excited because I think this dream purchase will become a reality sometime this week! With everything that has been going on (especially after today) Husband has given in to me splurging for a new purse! Last year I bought a beautiful Kate Spade bag- now, this year I am obsessed with this one! Hopefully I will have real-life pictures of it to share soon!

2) This beautiful car........


Husband and I have been debating back and forth on one for a couple months now. Due to his new job (we still dont know exactly what he will be making) and the constant $ required for treatments we have had to hold off for a little, but hopefully this one will become a reality before the end of the year too!
One last thing, I have not had time to sit down and read everyones blogs since Friday! I feel horrible about it and am dying to know what is going on in all of your lives! I 100% plan to catch up on Wednesday and will probably spend hours reading what everyone has been up to- but in the meantime, Im very sorry!
--Cait

15 comments:

Meghan said...

Hey couz. I may not know what it's like having treatments fail, but I know what it's like to be disappointed every month that a little one is not on the way (15 months for us!). I know what those moments of sadness and crying in your hubby's arms are like and I mourn with you. When the time comes for Baby Hill to make his/her appearance, all these disappointing months will make you (and me!) all the more appreciative when we get pregnant! Here's to going down the baby-making path with you! Can't wait to see where we end up!

Brooke&Tyson said...

praying for you!!

California Wife said...

So sorry that you didn't get the new you were hoping for! I'll be thinking of you!

Ashley said...

Sorry things didn't work out this time. Praying that the next round works!

Mrs. B said...

I'm SO sorry things didn't work out this month, Cait! I'm thinkinig of you and I hope that this next round of meds is IT. **fingers crossed and big HUGS**

Jennifer said...

I am praying for you and hoping that you and the hubbs receive great news soon!!

I am loving your 2 picks for Top 2 Tuesday too!!

Lori said...

I am so sorry. I will be praying that you can start a treatment that WILL work for you. Keep the faith, and I will be praying!

Stephanie said...

Wow, I know those moments all too well. And Clomid was like candy for me as well, NOTHING. I know how frustrating it is month after month...hopefully not much longer! I may just have to continue to follow your journey...I've been there. Love the purse & car, great picks!

Taylor @ The Undomestic Momma said...

you already know what I have to say about the first part of this post :( Love you! and Im obsessed with that purse seriously Im going to be so jealous when you get it you will have to bring it over to show me!

Meant to be a mom said...

That song is such an amazing song. I love it too. But I'm truly sorry to hear that you had to listen to it because you got such yuck news!
I know the daily shots seem terrible but just keep in your head "This is for my baby, the child I will love and carry and will do anything for". Suddenly they seem all worth it.
I'll keep praying for you.

I hope the weeks to come are filled with Greatness :)

Laura@Cowboy Boots said...

seriously love me some coldplay...saw them in concert and will add that to my list of BEST EVER....

as for the news...i'm ssooooo sorry! the journey will be worth it!

Malerie said...

<3

Hilary Lane said...

I hate that for you! And I heard Fix You one time, played in church, and just fell in love. It's such a great song. And to be even more random, what a cute car! My hubby & I have been talking about me getting a new car, but I'm so picky! Everything I like turns out to be high dollar! Right now, I'm really loving the Dodge Nitro (since the Volvo & Hummer are a wee bit out of reach).

And thanks for the comment earlier. I appreciate it!

~jacquelyn said...

i'm so sorry you didnt get the news you'd hoped for, perserverance builds character. you guys will be in my prayers, i hope that you get better news next time :)

i LOVE that purse, how fun! treat youself, you deserve it!!!

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry you didn't get the news you were hoping for. Praying that they find the perfect mix of dosages to help you!!