Wednesday, February 23, 2011

We Are Going To..........


We have officially booked our trip for our anniversary in September! Spain, France, Italy- check, check, check! Since this is our first trip to Europe, we have decided to take a cruise so that we can see multiple countries, but the best part is that after our cruise we will be spending an extra day in Rome! I cannot tell you how excited I am to see all of this:

This is such a huge deal for Husband and me--- we have been wanting to go for several years and we just kept thinking "maybe someday". Now, with our new outlook on life we just figure WHY NOT? **plus it helps that I had some miles saved up for my ticket :) All I know is September cannot come fast enough!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

You All Rock!!!

All I can say is WOW! Thank you all for those awesome comments from my depressing post last week! I got a smile on my face each time I read one of your comments and they really helped me realize I am not alone in this. So many of you have felt the exact same way and those of you that havent, you have been so supportive!

Last week was definitely a rough week, but I am putting that all behind me. I have learned that I need to get out more and just enjoy myself, without staying home and worrying about what may or may not ever happen. I think Husband and I were both kind of in a funk these last couple of weeks, but we have now made a pact to try and enjoy what we have even more!

So, thank you- all of you! You all helped me make it through last week with a smile! I have some exciting events coming up within the next couple of weeks and I cannot wait to get back to writing some happier posts to share with you all! :)

Sunday, February 13, 2011

WARNING: Depressing Post Ahead!

I promised myself when I started this blog that I would not write any depressing, "poor me", "I hate infertility" posts, but today I cant help it and I really need to vent so here it goes..........

I have officially reached the "Everyone is pregnant but me" stage :( Literally, everyone IS pregnant but me! I feel like I woke up one morning and then Bham! everyone is pregnant! Dont believe me? For starters, I now have 3 co-workers that are pregnant- yes, THREE!- and keep in mind I work in a small office consisting of only about 15 people. That means there is quite a bit of talk every day that involves baby showers, buying baby clothes, baby names, pregnancy cravings, pregnancy sickness, etc the list goes on and on. And that is just at my work! Outside of work I have continued to watch women battle their own inferitlity struggles and succeed with pregnancy all during the time I have been endlessly waiting for my own.

The worst part of this is, I am happy for all of these women- GENIUNELY happy! I want to be able to help them celebrate their excitement. I want to be able to disuss baby names with them. I want to go buy them lots of onesies, bottles, and burp clothes. BUT, at the same time I dont understand why I cant have a piece of that fairytale as well. If everyone around me gets their "happily ever after", why not me? And as much as I really, truly want to believe everything happens for a reason, I cant help thinking at the same time what did I do to deserve this?

So while I was feeling down earlier today I texted Husband to let him know and here was his exact response: "I know it will happen. I just know babe. You and I are just too awesome to not have a kid. It has to happen." As much as that makes me smile, I also feel so sad because Husband has been so great through all of this and has continued to hold his head high. He still remains so positive and is completely sure that we will end up happy when all of this is over. How am I supposed to respond to that?

So now that I have vented, I hope I havent lost all of my followers :) I really have tried to embrace our infertility and I do feel very grateful for what I have learned through all of this and all of the wonderful people I have met. But I feel that my time should be over, I am ready to move on already! What did all of you do when you were struggling? I have been trying to come up with ways to keep myself busy and Husband has agreed to let me plan a big vacation for us this year so we can just get away for a bit. I would love to hear what worked for you guys to get your mind off of it.

**Oh, and those of you that are pregnant or have kids, please know that I love reading your blogs and I love the comments I receive from you guys. I dont want anyone to think that I am mad or upset towards those who have children--- this vent was totally for selfish reasons and is about our particular situation. Please still send me your stories because I always love reading about others who have been blessed with "a little one"- they continue to give me hope and something to look forward to! :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

In Shopping Heaven!

After being stuck inside all last week (because of all the crazy Texas snow!), I finally ventured out this weekend.........and of course my first destination was the mall!

Most of you already know, but Im OBSESSED with Nordstrom! So Saturday I met up with a friend for lunch and a bit of shopping------------Husband was not happy when he saw that I came home with this:

Maybe I went a little over the budget we had discussed before hand :( BUT, as I explained to Husband, I got some great things! Now that a lot of the spring clothing is coming in to stores, I just cant help myself! :)

Oh, and I thought I would throw in a picture of me and my bestie from Super Bowl Sunday :)

*** The scarf I am wearing is one of my purchases from my shopping trip :)

Friday, February 4, 2011

Winter Wonderland!

For those of you that do not live in North Texas, we have had some crazy weather this week! On top of the the inch or 2 of ice that we already have covering everything from earlier this week, I woke up this mornig to see this outside..........

This is the 4th day in a row that schools and businesses have been shut down! I had every intention of FINALLY venturing out to the mall today- but now it looks like that wont be happening :(
Its looking like today I will be cuddled up by the fire with my Kindle instead!