Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Giuliana Rancic Reveals Battle With Breast Cancer
During everything Husband and I have endured in the past 2 years, I have constantly looked up to Giuliana for the way she handled her own struggles with such dignity and was so open about all of her feelings. She made it ok to talk about infertility and helped spread awareness to so many.
I am a strong believer in the saying "things happen for a reason" and I know God always has a plan, but sometime you are just left wondering WHY?
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
I wish I could say I am returning to blogging on the best of terms (with Baby Hill on the way), but sadly that is not the case. Husband and I have been doing great the past couple of months- taking time to travel, spending lots of time with family and friends, and focusing on our careers and other goals. I have been wanting to blog these past couple of months, but I honestly have not had the time- and I worried what I would even blog about: we are no longer seeking fertility treatments, we have put a hold on in-vitro, and for a while I even had to stop thinking of babies all together to just enjoy our summer.
But a lot of that changed recently when Husband and I were faced with our greatest test yet: a VERY close family member is expecting a baby. Out of respect to our family, I will be keeping the name, relationship, details, etc out of my posts- BUT since this a blog I created to express our frustrations and difficulty while trying to conceive I think its only fair for me to be able to express my frustrations here (if I cant do it here, where can I??) Husband and I were completely shocked when we learned the news and it is still very new and hurtful to us. We are very grateful for this new life in our family, but have no idea how we will handle all the excitement and happiness that will be around us. What will this upcoming holiday season be like? How will we attend family functions with a smile on our face? Is it wrong for us to ask for space from our family members while we process the news? How do we ask for sensitivity from our family members during this difficult time?
I quickly realized how much I cherish the relationships I have made with so many of you through blogging and how helpful it is to have the support of others around you. Husband and I feel like at this time we are unable to talk to any of our family about our feelings so we have been forced to turn to friends and peers for advice. I know we are not the first infertile couple to struggle with this type of situation and I would love advice from any of you who have been through similar experiences. What worked for you and how did you overcome any feelings of anger, hurt, frustration?
As always, thank you to all of you who have expressed support and encouragement to both Husband and I. We have learned to take these difficult situations 1 step at a time and know that during these hard times our relationships with others and with each other grow stronger.
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Sunday, September 18, 2011
Tears and Hope- Empty Arms
The video is a bit slow but it puts into words how so many people feel. Its always nice to know you are not alone :)
**More to come on my return to blogging--thank you so much for all the recent emails, they really helped push me to return! :)
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Saturday, May 21, 2011
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Wednesday, April 27, 2011
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Monday, April 25, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
1) Iced Tea-Im pretty "plain jane" when it comes to my tea- no fancy flavors for me, just give me some basic Lipton! And in case you guys dont already think Im weird from some things you have heard in the past.........I hate sweet tea, but cant drink tea without sugar in it! I know, you are probably confused but: I have to be the one to put the sugar in and I let it sit at the bottom and drink it with a straw so I get a couple of crystals of sugar with each sip :) Yep, Im weird- but I promise its soooo good! 2) Caramel Frappuccino- this would really just say "anything Starbucks", but I guess that would be cheating so this is my favorite drink of theirs :) go to Taylors blog to play along :)
Sunday, April 10, 2011
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Thursday, April 7, 2011
*My husband thinks Im crazy because I love Ramen Noodles
*When putting away my laundry, the freshly washed clothes have to go at the bottom in my drawers so that everything is used evenly (like t-shirts, underwear, shorts, etc)--The same rule goes for our dishes
*I have 2 adorable dogs- one doberman mix, the other is an australian shepherd mix---both were rescued and we have vowed to rescue all of our dogs in the future (I think I have posted this on here before)
*I am weirdly obsessed with the tv show Sister Wives (on TLC)--- if you dont know what I am talking about go watch it!
*I hate change-- or not having control in situations
*I met Husband in our high school Psychology class :)
*I HATE working out
*I have never broken a bone/had any surgeries (except for my tonsils)
*My favorite number is 8
*I am very indecisive---mainly because I will weigh the pros and cons of every decision! Then I worry I will make the wrong choice
*I am a worry freak!
If you are attending DBM and want to play along link up here
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Monday, April 4, 2011
Since I tend to change my "favorite" song a lot, I decided to let you know my CURRENT favorites:
1) Adele- Rolling in the Deep
I am insanely obsessed with this song right now and cant help but sing along at the top of my lungs whenever it comes on---- and in case you are wondering, I have THE WORST singing voice (Husband even says so!)
2) Katy Perry- E.T.
I decided not to post this video because I just watched it for the first time today and it totally freaked me out! (Seeing "aliens" will make me have nightmares!)
Go link up at Taylor's blog to join in! :)
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
In between preparing for all of these upcoming events, Husband and I have been trying to come up with some new ways to enjoy ourselves.........like having long talks over Sunday Brunch, driving aimlessly to explore new parts of the cities around us, and taking our dogs for hikes around the nearby lake:
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
........These Steve Madden wedges I just HAD TO HAVE! (I bought them in black)
............Taylor's amazing candles! I have Apple Cinnamon Brown Sugar burning in my kitchen right now and it smells sooooo good!
........AND I'm loving that after a long morning of cleaning out our garage, Husband and I are spending a relaxing afternoon on the couch catching up on our DVR :)
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Wednesday, February 23, 2011
This is such a huge deal for Husband and me--- we have been wanting to go for several years and we just kept thinking "maybe someday". Now, with our new outlook on life we just figure WHY NOT? **plus it helps that I had some miles saved up for my ticket :) All I know is September cannot come fast enough!
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Sunday, February 20, 2011
Last week was definitely a rough week, but I am putting that all behind me. I have learned that I need to get out more and just enjoy myself, without staying home and worrying about what may or may not ever happen. I think Husband and I were both kind of in a funk these last couple of weeks, but we have now made a pact to try and enjoy what we have even more!
So, thank you- all of you! You all helped me make it through last week with a smile! I have some exciting events coming up within the next couple of weeks and I cannot wait to get back to writing some happier posts to share with you all! :)
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Sunday, February 13, 2011
I have officially reached the "Everyone is pregnant but me" stage :( Literally, everyone IS pregnant but me! I feel like I woke up one morning and then Bham! everyone is pregnant! Dont believe me? For starters, I now have 3 co-workers that are pregnant- yes, THREE!- and keep in mind I work in a small office consisting of only about 15 people. That means there is quite a bit of talk every day that involves baby showers, buying baby clothes, baby names, pregnancy cravings, pregnancy sickness, etc the list goes on and on. And that is just at my work! Outside of work I have continued to watch women battle their own inferitlity struggles and succeed with pregnancy all during the time I have been endlessly waiting for my own.
The worst part of this is, I am happy for all of these women- GENIUNELY happy! I want to be able to help them celebrate their excitement. I want to be able to disuss baby names with them. I want to go buy them lots of onesies, bottles, and burp clothes. BUT, at the same time I dont understand why I cant have a piece of that fairytale as well. If everyone around me gets their "happily ever after", why not me? And as much as I really, truly want to believe everything happens for a reason, I cant help thinking at the same time what did I do to deserve this?
So while I was feeling down earlier today I texted Husband to let him know and here was his exact response: "I know it will happen. I just know babe. You and I are just too awesome to not have a kid. It has to happen." As much as that makes me smile, I also feel so sad because Husband has been so great through all of this and has continued to hold his head high. He still remains so positive and is completely sure that we will end up happy when all of this is over. How am I supposed to respond to that?
So now that I have vented, I hope I havent lost all of my followers :) I really have tried to embrace our infertility and I do feel very grateful for what I have learned through all of this and all of the wonderful people I have met. But I feel that my time should be over, I am ready to move on already! What did all of you do when you were struggling? I have been trying to come up with ways to keep myself busy and Husband has agreed to let me plan a big vacation for us this year so we can just get away for a bit. I would love to hear what worked for you guys to get your mind off of it.
**Oh, and those of you that are pregnant or have kids, please know that I love reading your blogs and I love the comments I receive from you guys. I dont want anyone to think that I am mad or upset towards those who have children--- this vent was totally for selfish reasons and is about our particular situation. Please still send me your stories because I always love reading about others who have been blessed with "a little one"- they continue to give me hope and something to look forward to! :)
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Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Most of you already know, but Im OBSESSED with Nordstrom! So Saturday I met up with a friend for lunch and a bit of shopping------------Husband was not happy when he saw that I came home with this:
Maybe I went a little over the budget we had discussed before hand :( BUT, as I explained to Husband, I got some great things! Now that a lot of the spring clothing is coming in to stores, I just cant help myself! :)
Friday, February 4, 2011
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Monday, January 24, 2011
I am only about 5-6 classes away from graduation so I am determined more than ever to finish! That, and Husband has been talking A LOT lately about getting his Masters, so I am taking that as my hint that I need to hurry up! :)
I went to my first class this past Saturday and it went great! I actually think taking the time off helped-- I am actually excited about going back to school and learning new things! For anyone who is interested, my degree will be in Marketing and I am currently taking a Real Estate/Investment class (Im starting off slow with only 1 class this semester).
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
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Sunday, January 16, 2011
Both of these ladies are great and I enjoy reading their blogs so much! Stephanie is currently preggo with her 2nd little one and its a baby girl! I just cant wait to see pictures when she finally arrives!
Al has been such an inspiring woman with everything she has overcome in this past year. She has learned to roll with what life throws her way and she has held her head high through it all! I really hope to see some great things come her way in 2011!
With this award, I am to list 7 things about myself and award it to others, so here we go:
*I am headed back to school (more about this to come later in the week!)
*I love all things pink- its my favorite color
*Husband and I have made a pact that all of our dogs will be adopted (because there are so many good ones out there deserving a loving home!), but I understand that not everyone wishes to do this
*I am watching the Golden Globes while writing this post :)
*I am currently obsessed with eating organic yogurt with sliced fruit for breakfast each morning- it makes me feel like I am starting my day off right!
*I absolutely love traveling-- and will finally get to travel outside of North America on our anniversary trip in September! (some of you may know where, but I am not officially sharing until we get the trip completely booked!)
*For new readers: I have now been struggling with infertility for 1 year and 3 months
Blogs I am tagging:
The Kubeczka Family
A Complete Waste of Makeup
Lastly, I am getting super excited for this:
Yes, I will be attending for the ENTIRE WEEKEND and I hope to see many of your faces there! One of my besties, Taylor, is putting it together and I am looking forward to helping her organize some of the events! Everyone start getting excited because it will be AMAZING! :)
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Monday, January 10, 2011
This weeks topic is..............Strange Addictions!
Apparently this topic was a little too hard for me :) Every addiction that I kept coming up with was not a STRANGE addiction (coffee, iced tea, shopping), so I had Husband answer for me and here is what he says are my 2 Strange Addictions:
1) Picking the skin on my fingers/lips------ Yes, this is probably gross to most people, but I cannot help constantly picking at the skin around my fingers or picking at my chapped lips- even to the point of making myself bleed :( It drives Husband crazy!
2) Every time I eat popcorn (which is several times a week!) I HAVE TO lick the butter off the popcorn bag! I know this is probably absolute worst thing to do, but I just cannot help it!
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Sunday, January 9, 2011
Today we officially began treatment for IUI #3. After going to the doctor early Friday morning for a sono, I received some very good news--- No Cyst!! This meant we were able to jump right back into treatment without having to wait another month for the cyst to go away (like we have had to do the last 2 times). We are hoping this is a good sign of what is to come!
On a completely seperate note, IT SNOWED TODAY! I absolutely love how everything looks in our neighborhood when its dusted with some snow :)
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Wednesday, January 5, 2011
This has become a favorite tradition of mine over the past couple of years---- every Monday night we get together, watch The Bachelor, and our husbands join in while endlessly making fun of every single contestant on the show! This always makes for a fun-filled night!
Although, I have to say I was not impressed with any of the women so far! Do any of you have any favorites already? There were obviously some drama-makers (which will be fun to watch) and the Vampire Girl scared me to death, but so far I do not have any that I am actually rooting for. We will have to wait and see.........
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